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Lately I have been feeling spiritually frustrated.
I moved closer to the temple, and thus spend more time there, and less time out in the world distributing. I have been feeling sad and kind of dead inside.

Krishna is really amazing!!! He arranges things so nicely. Tonight I was convinced that He is really there making things happen so magically!!!! We need just be instruments in His mission!!

Last night I met a lady at the grocery store, offered her a book, she said she had the Gita already and liked the Krishna vegetarian food. We spoke more and since she lives close by I told her I would bring her Krishna food some time, so she gave me her phone number and address. I promised to bring food soon.

Today I went to a meditation retreat. It was nice. I was struggling for awhile because I was attempting to just do the breath method but then I decided to focus on Krishna's name and that morphed into me actually chanting in my head. It is hard to chant Hare Krishna with out moving your tongue or mouth but that made me really concentrate on the mantra. From then on the day went very quickly.

I was never promiscuous... but no sex is safe sex. In efforts to put the past behind me and Krishna Consciousness in front of me I went to the clinic to get tested for STDs and HIV. I had never been tested before. I was pretty confident that I was "clean" but I wanted it on paper. I wanted a fresh start.

Hare Krishna!
Since this is the age of quarrel (Kali) we all have the tendency to look at a shirt with a little stain on it and rather than looking at the good parts of the shirt like the nice material, the durability, etc.. we automatically critisize that one spot even though our shirts could have a million more defects!